Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. ~Ambrose Redmoon
I start today’s post with this quote because I have been contemplating something for a good while now. I work for wonderful people at a great company and I can’t complain about the kind of money I make, but there has been “something” missing for a long time. I joined the board of a special needs school thinking that would fill the hole of “I need to do something more – something with meaning” but it hasn’t. I love my corporate job in finance and I love the students and teachers at the school too, but the hole remains.
So over the last 6 weeks I have been periodically taking career aptitude, personality and “what the hell do you want to do with your life” tests. I think I’ve taken about 14 so far. EVERY single test reveals that I should be a mental health counselor, psychologist, novelist/poet or teacher. There were even a few tests that I went back and took over thinking that maybe I hadn’t answered the questions truthfully, but the results were the same.
Every one of these careers is in the field of changing lives. EVERY ONE! So that has to be what is missing from my life – my contributions to making other lives better – right?
I’ve always threatened Mr. Strong that I am going to get out of the corporate world one day and become a teacher, so I can be with my kids more and his answers are always the same”
“You don’t have the patience to be a teacher.” Maybe a coach – not a teacher.
“You would miss making the money you make and we would be broke during the summer.”
“You would be bored on your time off during the summer.”
Mr. Strong is absolutely right on all accounts! I can’t argue with any of them! Even though Kitty tells me I would be a great teacher because I don’t except excuses – I agree with Mr. Strong on this one.
Then yesterday, I came across a self-assessment test. This self-assessment asks you to think about the times that you feel the most joy. Well, this was hard because I feel true joy when I am planning a vacation and really just at the thought of a clean house, but that isn’t what it’s really asking…is it?
Okay, if I am being honest with my whole entire being, the times that I feel true joy are the times that I have helped someone accomplish something. This summer was amazing for me! I helped myself, but I also helped the girls and a few friends learn that their goals ARE attainable. I felt true joy the day CL came into my office and told me “thank you” for helping her lose 12lbs. (Although she is the one that done the work, she said without my “drill sergeant” encouragement and direction she wouldn’t have even started.) This brought the happy tears to my eyes – that was true joy for me. Or when the girls and I went school clothes shopping and they were finally happy with their sizes and Kiki wasn’t afraid the girls this school year were going to call her fat! That is true joy for me! Knowing that I helped change – if nothing else – their negative attitude and instilled some self esteem, so they could face whatever came their way. Or when I helped a friend get through some tough non-profit accounting training – with just a few suggestions and corrections – she jumped for joy the day she finally ran the reports and “understood” that she COULD do the job! She sent me flowers…
Showing someone that they have what it takes to accomplish ANYTHING they decide they want to accomplish and seeing their happiness when they do – THAT IS MY PURE JOY MOMENT!
THAT is what fills the missing piece.
Anyway – after I took this self-assessment from this Ivy League University and incorporated everything that I just wrote above – my career paths that were decided based on my answers were basically the same, only this time Personal/Life Coach was on the list.
Is that even possible? Me? A personal/life coach?
Naturally I drilled into the Personal/Life Coach line and every description, every characteristic of “do you have what it takes” and EVERY duty of a personal/life coach fit me – it fit everything that I try to do now with my family and friends.
Then I read this:
“Most people can’t make big changes on their own,” says Kim Goad, author, personal leadership expert and president of Ovations, a Westminster-based performance consulting firm. “[They] cannot push themselves. They need someone to tell them to stretch, and they need to hear it from someone other than a spouse or friend.”
Well if you HAVE read any of my previous posts then you KNOW I am the person behind the persons encouraging (YELLING) at them to push beyond their set limits.
For now, I will be doing some more research, but I feel that I have had what Oprah would call my “AH-HA!” moment where the light bulb turned on.
And you might (probably not) be asking how this relates to the Law of Attraction – well, I know now that today I am placing an order for my tomorrows from the Universe. My predominant thoughts and feelings today are creating a frequency that is automatically determining my life tomorrow. So, for today, I will feel good about what I have written in order to make my tomorrows as magnificent as I currently imagine.
I hope you are doing the same!
Those of you that read my blog or know me personally - what do YOU think?
Days 148-152 "Tic-Toc"
After the funeral last week and the traveling back and forth and well – everything else in between – I became overwhelmed and acted like a real witch with a capital B! Mr. Strong finally broke down and told me that I needed to go workout (to relieve stress and create my “happy” endorphins) or I needed to go away for the weekend. ***sigh*** that’s how bad “I” was…
Whatever - I went and worked out and it really did make me feel better. But, the whole time I was peddling away on that bike my mind was trying to figure out WHAT it was that was really bothering me. WHAT? What is it that ALWAYS seems to instantly put me in a bad mood – what is the negativity that is surrounding me and smothering me into a GIANT BIATCH!? I kept coming back to the same answer – my house. The once happy and carefree atmospheric energy is now dead and buried under a pile of laundry, chores, and “stuff.” I’m not a hoarder or anything that BAD, but I know for the kind of energy that I need to find and dig up again, I need to get rid of a lot of unwanted – outdated – broken – new – what-the-hell-was-I-thinking-when-I-bought-that “stuff.” I am overcome with staleness when I walk into my house. A staleness that creates NO energy AT ALL and that in turn creates unorganized rooms, closets and indifferent persons living in there – somewhere.
Most people that have been in my house would think that I am crazy for writing this – they can’t see what I’m talking about. Yes, everything on the surface is put away (or the door is shut) and straightened up, but it is the closed cabinets, drawers, closets (under the kids’ beds) that are full and bursting at the seams - ready to rip open and explode! I know the good (like a cool fall breeze on a sunny day) energy is buried somewhere deep down in the depths of closet hell! I NEED to find it again. SOON! I see (a lot of) little signs of house neglect here and there and I want to fix it – I don’t know how, but I am an expert “google-er” I can figure it out – right?
Saturday, the girls and I spent 4 hours – FOUR HOURS – cleaning two rooms. That is CLEANING two rooms – NOT organizing or de-cluttering! I guess I felt that if the beds and linens were washed and made and the floors were HAND-SCRUBBED then it would be easier to de-clutter and organize – after the fact.
Well, “after the fact” came and went and here I am back to a straightened house with an energy that is paranoid to resurface because it has been gone so long. And yes, I will be getting a private maid, but she won’t be paid to de-clutter my house! This is something that “I” have to do ***sigh***
The LOA tells us that simple visualization has been shown to increase strength, speed up healing, and increase attitude and comfort levels. I desperately need some mental healing right now, so I am going to visualize my clean, organized, clutter-free and simplistic house. I am going to feel the welcoming happy energy that I used to feel when we first bought the house many years ago and all the small neglecting has been taken care of.
I have learned that we’re likely to create our own limits within our minds and will need support from “wherever and whomever” until we learn how to have no limits to what we believe we can do within our own minds. I still have some set limits, but I have conquered through quite a few of others and have PROVED that the LOA works! I KNOW that I will get my house back to the simple and organized state that it has been and I know that I will once again feel the butterflies of excitement that I felt when we first signed the papers and the keys were handed over. And if I am brave enough - I will take before and after photos!
I MUST.
Tic-Toc
The countdown has started.
Clean house or mental breakdown?
Tic-Toc
Hmmm - mental breakdown might be easier…
Tic-Toc
Fine - Clean house it is then…
Tic-Toc
(Like the sunrise? I just had to change the background - now I can remember to be a Sunrise person everyday, even when I sleep in! Have you decided what kind of "person" you are yet?)
Whatever - I went and worked out and it really did make me feel better. But, the whole time I was peddling away on that bike my mind was trying to figure out WHAT it was that was really bothering me. WHAT? What is it that ALWAYS seems to instantly put me in a bad mood – what is the negativity that is surrounding me and smothering me into a GIANT BIATCH!? I kept coming back to the same answer – my house. The once happy and carefree atmospheric energy is now dead and buried under a pile of laundry, chores, and “stuff.” I’m not a hoarder or anything that BAD, but I know for the kind of energy that I need to find and dig up again, I need to get rid of a lot of unwanted – outdated – broken – new – what-the-hell-was-I-thinking-when-I-bought-that “stuff.” I am overcome with staleness when I walk into my house. A staleness that creates NO energy AT ALL and that in turn creates unorganized rooms, closets and indifferent persons living in there – somewhere.
Most people that have been in my house would think that I am crazy for writing this – they can’t see what I’m talking about. Yes, everything on the surface is put away (or the door is shut) and straightened up, but it is the closed cabinets, drawers, closets (under the kids’ beds) that are full and bursting at the seams - ready to rip open and explode! I know the good (like a cool fall breeze on a sunny day) energy is buried somewhere deep down in the depths of closet hell! I NEED to find it again. SOON! I see (a lot of) little signs of house neglect here and there and I want to fix it – I don’t know how, but I am an expert “google-er” I can figure it out – right?
Saturday, the girls and I spent 4 hours – FOUR HOURS – cleaning two rooms. That is CLEANING two rooms – NOT organizing or de-cluttering! I guess I felt that if the beds and linens were washed and made and the floors were HAND-SCRUBBED then it would be easier to de-clutter and organize – after the fact.
Well, “after the fact” came and went and here I am back to a straightened house with an energy that is paranoid to resurface because it has been gone so long. And yes, I will be getting a private maid, but she won’t be paid to de-clutter my house! This is something that “I” have to do ***sigh***
The LOA tells us that simple visualization has been shown to increase strength, speed up healing, and increase attitude and comfort levels. I desperately need some mental healing right now, so I am going to visualize my clean, organized, clutter-free and simplistic house. I am going to feel the welcoming happy energy that I used to feel when we first bought the house many years ago and all the small neglecting has been taken care of.
I have learned that we’re likely to create our own limits within our minds and will need support from “wherever and whomever” until we learn how to have no limits to what we believe we can do within our own minds. I still have some set limits, but I have conquered through quite a few of others and have PROVED that the LOA works! I KNOW that I will get my house back to the simple and organized state that it has been and I know that I will once again feel the butterflies of excitement that I felt when we first signed the papers and the keys were handed over. And if I am brave enough - I will take before and after photos!
I MUST.
Tic-Toc
The countdown has started.
Clean house or mental breakdown?
Tic-Toc
Hmmm - mental breakdown might be easier…
Tic-Toc
Fine - Clean house it is then…
Tic-Toc
(Like the sunrise? I just had to change the background - now I can remember to be a Sunrise person everyday, even when I sleep in! Have you decided what kind of "person" you are yet?)
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