Yesterday I spent the whole afternoon at the doctor’s office with Kitty because her tonsils are basically touching AGAIN – I think it’s time to get those babies yanked out! Since we are right in the middle of Tennis, I guess it will have to wait until this summer…fun, fun.
Anyway
Today I’m a little broken hearted.
I signed a Letter of Intent for my perfect space yesterday and this morning I found out that another “realtor” had an LOI in an hour before mine and I will NOT get my space. Tear :’-(
Why were there two people from the SAME small management place handling one space? Don’t they communicate!?
Ugh.
This place was perfect…
So now what?
I am discouraged…
I am confused…
I am a little heartbroken…
BUT!
I will NOT give up!
Period.
I just need to work out a few things…
I know I still owe you all before and after pictures – I have not forgotten! Just been busy…shhhh!
I do have another item on my agenda now. I am officially house hunting. We have outgrown our current house – not by people – but by “things”. We have no room for our trailer, RV or our Ranger. And since we live in the middle of town, we keep getting notices that we can’t park these items in our side yard or on the street. It sucks!
Among that reason, I received a postcard in the mail that we had a High Risk Sex Offender move into our community! Oh yeah! I am putting this out there! By my community, they mean literally down the freaking street!
My girls walk home people! (Of course they LOVED this time alone and independence!) I can’t have this! When I googled the sex offenders in our area, I found that there are 3! Count them THREE of these types of people in that same complex!
Keep in mind that I don’t live in the “bad” part of town either! What really pierces my heart is that I don’t feel it’s safe for the girls anymore. Not to mention – them walking home together and staying alone for an hour before I get home. (This guy’s particular offense was burglary WITH a sex offense! )
Now, I have to change everything! And I’m heartbroken all over again.
Why would you let a “HIGH-RISK” (their words – not mine) sex offender out of prison or on the streets? Can someone please explain why they are not in some mental hospital or rehab place? I pay enough taxes to support them being AWAY from me! Huh? Anyone?
So now I am house hunting – which makes me a little happier. I know that I can’t smother my girls and take away all of their freedoms, but that is exactly what my protective nature has done. Not only that, I feel that I am smothering myself because I refuse to even go to the grocery store alone without them! I hate it!
I am a ball of nerves, irritation and anger! We HAD a really good system and schedule going that was beneficial to everyone – not anymore!
What is soooo bad, is that I can’t control any of it!
I.Can’t.Control.ANY.of.It!
And yet my whole family, work and LIFE have been affected!
MY KIDS ARE MY LIFE! (okayyy, Mr. Strong too...)
So I will remain a little heartbroken…until the things that I CAN control are completed and successful.
:'-(
Where is a magic money fairy when you need one? "Poof! all of your debt and burdens are gone and your new house that you picked out is bought and paid for! Voila! Enjoy! Your family is safe now!"
*sigh*
Days 255-258 "pick your battles..."
This weekend was a very busy weekend for me. Kiki had an orchestra concert that was a little more than entertaining. It was actually considered a family/school fair in which her orchestra played. Now keep in mind that this place is filled with children and tables representing all the different schools and extracurricular activities in our community. Her orchestra was supposed to play at 10:30, so naturally we arrived at 10:20 because it was one of those mornings and I somehow got lost – even with the navigation in the HUMMER…don’t ask.
She ended up going on stage about 30 minutes late, so that meant that I had 30 minutes to chase Doodlebug around the whole place and ply and bribe him with soda and chips and whatever else he asked for just so that he would keep being good.
And well? he made it most of the time, but the “good” in him wore off just as Kiki was going on stage. Kitty was doing all that she could to help me because I was trying to take pictures, but somehow this is how the whole event took place – after their orchestra went onstage.
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| "Mommy! Mommy! Mommy! Take picture of MEEEEE!" |
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| "Kiki!! Kiki! I come up there?!!!!!" (Me: "DO NOT GO UP ON THAT STAGE! Leave her alone and come here!") |
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| (Do I look at him or do I practice...oh boy!) |
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| Yes, I am still watching you Doodlebug! Do NOT go up on that stage...come here! (That grin on his face tells me I better not take my eyes off of him!) |
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| WTH! I only took my eyes away for a second! "Doodlebug! Get out from under there!" (As I pull him back and try to minimize the scene that is happening - remember that Kiki's Orchestra is playing in the background!) |
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| "Kiki hurry up! Kiki hurry up! I'm tired!" (At this point my "give a damn" was broken.) |
After a morning like this on Saturday I felt that my only hope in getting “some parts” of my life back into MY control, I decided it was going to have to be a weekend of spring cleaning. Yes, those pictures will be coming to you this week. They are part of my de-cluttering and cleaning out before and after pictures that I owe and will owe you this week.
Anywhoozle, I knew that my only option of getting this accomplished was going to include ALL of my laundry. And the only way ALL of my laundry was going to get done was to swallow the expense and guilt (knowing I have the large duet washer/dryer at home) and venture to the Laundry Mat. (this is what I called it growing up…)
The plan was to gather EVERYTHING, so that when we returned, we could separate, de-clutter and donate CLEAN clothes. So, I took before pictures of the girls’ closets and of Doodlebug’s. My one mistake was cleaning out some of Doodlebug’s toy closet because he found his old Halloween costume and well…
You have to learn to pick your battles and I knew this is one that I wasn’t going to win…nor did I care – he’s three.
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| This is how he "went" all day - he brought a lot of smiles to many faces! |
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