Day 30

This is the first morning that I actually woke up before my alarm went off! Whoo Hooo! Today we went to one of the local parks. I had already scouted it out and measured the distance around the park, so I knew that 3 laps would equal a mile. My goal this morning was 4 miles – again. I feel that we need to break out of the 3 mile rut. Did we do it? Crap no! But, we did go 3.3 miles! It isn’t the 4 miles that I wanted to accomplish, but we broke free from the usual 3 miles – I am happy!

Although I am happy, Kitty is not. Ever since we weighed-in on Wednesday morning, she has been sulking like crazy! She didn’t want to push herself yesterday and she didn’t put forth any more effort this morning either – even with me yelling at her! She just acted like she couldn’t hear me…

So, I need to come up with some alternative brilliant, light bulb flashing, music playing and the whole TA DAAAA idea, so she will quit focusing on her weight “number” and start focusing on her goals! I’m an educated woman and I have taken enough Psychology classes in my lifetime to be able to come up with something…! Her problem is that she has reached that age of puberty where her hormones/mood swings/self identity/ self esteem – whatever – is ALL OVER THE PLACE! I can do it though – I’ll take suggestions if you have any too! My problem is that I wasn’t blessed with a lot of patience and after a very short while of support and accommodation, I just crack and say “Quit griping and DO something about it!!!!!! Shish!”

I have ZERO patience for self-degradation! Instead of griping about your thighs, why don’t you say “I am lucky that I can get my butt up and run in the mornings to take care of my troubled spots…”? OR, instead of saying “I’m tired – I’m sleepy, can we only do 2 miles today…” try being thankful that you were given another day to wake up and LIVE. Instead of complaining about how much I YELL, why don’t you say “I am lucky to have someone that yells at me because she doesn’t want me to EVER give up on anything in life and supports me enough to get up at 5AM every morning so I can be happier..?” You know life and attitude really are that simple. Just some suggestions…

I watched my brother die at the age of 36 after haven been sick for 10 years. Going from an extremely athletic man to the point where there were a lot of things that he couldn’t do physically anymore is reason enough for me to NOT take for granted the health that I have. It took me 12-15 months of deep depression to finally wake up and appreciate this reality.

When people say “Life’s too short” they are right! Life IS too short, because I can still remember the very day when Kitty learned to walk AND climb stairs! Sigh…Nope – don’t take anything for granted. Because the things that you keep putting off today are the things that you wish you had spent more time on in the end…
Haven’t you ever started a 4-6-8 week “something” (or maybe longer) then quit the first few days in – then after that time passes, you wake up one day and realize that you could have already been done if you would have just stuck with it? It sucks…

I can’t control the past – I can’t control the future – BUT I CAN control the choices I make today (because I was lucky enough to wake up) that will lead me into the future I want! (So, technically, I do control the future…?) Hmmm?