Have you ever woke up and just found yourself wondering - where am I in my life? Am I doing all that I can to ensure my own happiness?
I feel like I have been in this strange place since school started for the girls. Work is busy, the family is busy and I am just watching myself act and react like a robot.
Could it be depression? Maybe, but to tell you the truth, I am happy, but I am also unhappy.
I haven't been able to write as much as I would have liked to over the past 6 months and now I am coming up on my two year anniversary. It's crazy - two years - and I am disappointed at how this past year has turned out. Almost everything I had set out to do....bombed.
This past 6 months waved a big good fucking bye in my rear view mirror with a smirk the size of Texas. A smirk that said, I knew you would SUCK at meeting your goals!
If I am being honest, I guess I could write that my life has gone in another direction. A direction of commitment to work and to my family and "who the hell has time to workout!"
Sorry, my attitude is shitty and my lack of care is apparent.
At times I want to get on here and just write...just blog without a care...but I am not anonymous and that could cause problems with individuals that read my work.
It's just crazy right now - or maybe it's me that is crazy - I don't know...
But I do know that I am in a strange place, and somethings gotta change.
Half my life...
Hello strangers! I keep popping in and out of this blog like a jack-in-the-box toy.
Keep winding...and eventually I'll show up.
Today has been a really good "hump day" so far - except for that small instance this morning where I had to hang a sign on my daughter's bedroom door that read "DO NOT CLEAN" for our maid - out of fear that she will never return if she had to clean that room - I am extremely happy.
I heard a song this morning on the radio and it took me back - it took me back 18 years ago:
This was my daydream.........(cue the back-in-time swirls)
I met a guy 18 years ago, this month, and we fell immediately in lust. (yes, lust - not love - shhh pay attention)
This guy taught me about the Law of Gravity on a kids playground see-saw.
He taught me how to survive a mild concussion from an announcer's booth/softball field fence post.
Together we learned how to treat a severe allergic reaction from the grass on the 50 yard line.
He taught me the hilarity of being romantic on the hood of his car and accidentally mooning a cop at the same time.
We've learned a lot from each other over the years - good and bad - but we have never failed to see the true potential of our relationship.
We've been through so many life-changing experiences together that we are the perfect Yin-Yang.
I've been with this man for 18 year now - half my life - and he still finds me attractive and sexy. I'm proud of the man he's become and couldn't have asked for a better husband or father.
End daydream.........
I love you Mr. Strong! Here's to another 18!
Keep winding...and eventually I'll show up.
Today has been a really good "hump day" so far - except for that small instance this morning where I had to hang a sign on my daughter's bedroom door that read "DO NOT CLEAN" for our maid - out of fear that she will never return if she had to clean that room - I am extremely happy.
I heard a song this morning on the radio and it took me back - it took me back 18 years ago:
This was my daydream.........(cue the back-in-time swirls)
I met a guy 18 years ago, this month, and we fell immediately in lust. (yes, lust - not love - shhh pay attention)
This guy taught me about the Law of Gravity on a kids playground see-saw.
He taught me how to survive a mild concussion from an announcer's booth/softball field fence post.
Together we learned how to treat a severe allergic reaction from the grass on the 50 yard line.
He taught me the hilarity of being romantic on the hood of his car and accidentally mooning a cop at the same time.
We've learned a lot from each other over the years - good and bad - but we have never failed to see the true potential of our relationship.
We've been through so many life-changing experiences together that we are the perfect Yin-Yang.
I've been with this man for 18 year now - half my life - and he still finds me attractive and sexy. I'm proud of the man he's become and couldn't have asked for a better husband or father.
End daydream.........
I love you Mr. Strong! Here's to another 18!
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