Days 231 & 232 "...I really want this!"

Well after a week of writing down what I eat, I have surprisingly learned that I do not eat as bad as I initially thought. So after analyzing WHY I thought it was soooo bad, I have come to the conclusion that my mistake lies in WHEN I eat and not in what I eat. As much as I try to avoid it – we eat late. I think this is my number one problem. By the time I get off work and then the kids are picked up and chauffeured to their respective sports and practices and games and concerts – we come home and eat. This happens every day of the work week. On the weekends, we eat an early brunch and then an early dinner and that’s it. Sunday is usually our day for some “dessert” around 3ish, but even that doesn’t happen all the time.


Eating late – around 8 p.m. on most days of the work week…

That might not be late for some people, but that is late for my family.

So, you may be asking “where is all this coming from?”

I went to work yesterday with my pants a little tighter than normal around the waist so I WEIGHED myself this morning after my run and…

I have gained back 6 pounds!

How my clothes fit is normally my “scale” so naturally after my wardrobe issues yesterday, I knew it was time to really see what was going on.

Okay, six pounds might not seem a lot to any of you, but that is SIX POUNDS in the MORNING when I am supposed to gauge my “real” weight. What that means is that I weigh more than those 6 pounds in the afternoon!

I am aware that the body fluctuates around 5 pounds up or down, but I haven’t reached my goal weight yet people! I can’t have this. This is unacceptable. I have decided to take back control and get out of this content state of my normal routine. My body is used to it and it is not getting me any more results. I am going to have to throw in some weight training – ugh! But at this point, I don’t care if I have trouble walking or writing with a pen or even typing – I need to change up my routine.

 This is me getting out of my own way, so that my success can continue.


Something else that I have discovered throughout this journey?…when I work out in the evenings, I don’t get quality sleep. When I work out in the mornings – I get quality sleep. (Another Ugh!) This means that it is back to working out in the mornings for me.

I can do it – I can do anything I WANT to do!

And I really want this…


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On another note:

I couldn’t quite figure out why I was re-filling my girls’ lunch accounts so often. I get online to check their balances at least once a week and kept seeing the money disappear. This has been going on for years, but it has really increased this year, so naturally in fear of going broke and each one of them gaining a ton of weight, I asked. “Why are you using more money than what it cost each day for lunch? Are you buying junk food?!”

I got this response from both of them. “NO, I have bought several of my friends’ lunch because they didn’t have any money and they couldn’t get a hold of their parents and they were going to have to eat a cheese sandwich and those are gross.”

I got this response from BOTH of my girls!

Ummmmm? I can’t really argue with that reason. My response was “Ok, just don’t be buying crap-food!”

Kitty threw in a quick “but they are going to pay me back…” and I stopped her in the middle of her sentence. “NO! Never ask or expect someone to pay you back after buying them lunch. Just know that you did a good thing and move on. NEVER expect someone to pay you back. Offer to buy them lunch because you know you are their only means of eating lunch that day. Be proud that you have parents that can afford to help you help them – understand?”

I felt proud of my girls and at the same time (a little guilty for judging), worry that one day they will buy too many other lunches and NOT have money for their own lunch. I got over it quickly, because I grew up poor. I know what it is like to NOT have money for lunch. I have begged and borrowed and made promises that I couldn’t keep all in the effort to eat lunch for the day.

So let me take this opportunity to publicly THANK each and every one of my classmates that had ever loaned me money to buy lunch or bought me lunch or took me to your house to eat lunch. Although I made promises to pay you back I couldn’t keep, I can proudly write that your generosity to me has never been forgotten and has been “paid forward” 1,000x’s over!


MUAH!


(6 pounds…shish)