For Macy

Magdalena "Macy" Kiker IV

06/12/2003 to 11/07/2013

My dearest Macy,

Today your life's energy transformed. You blessed our family with more than 10 years of your unconditional love. I will never be able to repay you for your love and affection and the way you so freely gave it.  You were the quiet one - the runt of the group - when your dad and I picked you out. We chose to bring you home  along with the your most lively sibling, so that her energy would compliment you and help you develop the social skills needed to be loved by someone other than your birth mother. And knowing that our careers and human children would keep us away most of the day, we didn't want you to be alone. We will never forget the day we brought you and your sister Lexi home...

Over the past 10 years, you have graciously let Lexi take the spotlight, but you never let us forget your love by bumping your nose into our hands to help remind us there were two of you. You were always so calculating with your affection and generous spirit - always letting go of your hesitations at just the right time. I hate that I can't take back the years of not being able to snuggle with you wrapped up on my lap or in my bed. But please know that I will NEVER forget you and the way you helped make your human siblings feel safe and secure after school when mom and dad were at work. You patrolled the perimeter and made your way back to the fireplace at ease knowing "all was good".  Or the times dad was working late nights and I brought you in the house to stand guard in his absence, so I could get a little sleep.

I loved you the moment I laid my eyes on you and knew that you were mine. I love you still. I'll love you always.

For Macy

We wish we could have told you,
in words you'd understand,
We wanted you to stay with us.
This wasn't what we'd planned.

We wish somehow to tell you,
How empty we now feel.
A part of us went with you,
A part that time can't heal.

We wish we'd once more hear you,
in your softly, rumbling purr,
to hold you on our laps again
and stroke your darken fur.

We wish we had you back again,
to fill this empty space.
But one day we'll be together
in a far, far better place.



I am heartbroken that you are gone and over my shortcomings as your mom, as a result from being very allergic to you. But, my heart swells just enough to tell the world that I am the luckiest person in the world to have know your love and energy. I am honored to have experienced 10 years of memories that will last a lifetime. You will be missed more than words can express.

Thank you Macy.

Thank you for it all...

I love you.

Inspiration from the cool breezes of fall and a trilogy in the making.

It's been a while since I was here, so first and foremost - I apologize.

I haven't been on here, but I assure you I have been writing - and it's going to be HUGE - I can feel it deep into my bones.

And it's going to be a trilogy...shhh.

The cool breezes of fall have me inspired to conquer the world and I am sooo ready. In the evolution of life and work and family you realize that evolution means change and change is constant. Looking into the future I know to take advantage of what is here in the present - and I assure you I am doing everything possible.

Current perspective mixed with a bright exciting future is fuel for my greatness.

I haven't written or read anything that could define "me" better than who I am in this very moment:

"Optimism seeps from every pore of my body. I truly believe what’s supposed to happen… will. In that regard, I don’t know how to give up; it’s not part of my biological make-up.

I’m a passionate (and some would say overly enthusiastic) individual. I learn by doing (and have been burned more times than I’d like to admit). But I will always throw my entire self into whatever I do – fail or succeed.

I think this is evident when I write. I leave nothing behind, and spill it all out onto the pages. I give it all to my readers – love it or hate it.

The path I’m on is very often my own. Sometimes I veer off at the sight of something more interesting or captivating and get caught in the vines and thorns in order to experience the beauty and intrigue others often pass by. And I always meet the most interesting people along the way…"

The cool breezes of fall have really stirred it up this time...