Happy Thoughts

I had a breakdown this morning – yep, while driving down the road.


I began crying and it didn’t stop until about an hour into work. Seriously, I felt like I didn’t get it all out – like I still have part of that and any other breakdown inside me – ready to implode.

It all started with another morning of the girls not getting up and getting dressed by the time we NEED to leave to meet the school bus. When this happens I have to take them both to school on opposite ends of the town and it makes me late to work. This frustration along with being extremely unhappy with my body right now, coupled with a sleepless night for reasons I wont discuss here, and it all just did me in – the tears fell and the sobs were released.

I just don’t know how someone that is so busy with work, family and other responsibilities can be so lonely – and yet I am. In the midst of my wonderful chaotic life – I feel alone. I feel like a bystander in my life because most of it, is spent running around for someone else.

I am blessed.

I am very lucky.

I am making my dreams come true.

Yet…

I feel alone.

I can’t explain it – I don’t even want to try.

I haven't always felt this way - these are new feelings - and yet, I....

One thing that I have learned (and trying to master) is that the Law of Attraction is exact. When someone talks about something negative or depressing, then those situation perpetuate those exact feelings and circumstances and I try to avoid conversations like this all together.

Meaning: Negativity – in any form – is contagious.

So, with that being written, I don’t want to create a negative domino. I will continue to look toward the positive perspective that will pull me out of this funk. I just needed the therapy of writing out loud today.

Until then … think happy thoughts!



…myself included…;-)