Busy at work…
Busy at home…
Busy on my new studio…
Busy, Busy, Busy!
I love being busy. I love having a routine. I love having a strict schedule, so that I know where everything fits into my life. I thrive on knowing that “showing up” is NOT half the battle for me, showing up is what keeps me from actually battling everyday with unorganized chaos.
And yet, that is what makes me the unhappiest – go figure.
I feel like I am so busy being busy that I am missing out on life. I haven’t had the chance to stop and smell the roses because well frankly – it is not in my schedule and keeping schedule and being on time creates less stress…right? I want the best of both worlds and I WILL to discover that magic formula very soon!
I’ve always been a working mom and I will always be a working mom. That is my nature. I love my children, would die for them, but the thought of really being a stay-at-home mom drives me restless. There are two sides to every story and although I am filled with a twinge of jealously to all those stay-at-home moms out there, I am also at peace knowing that I am not one. (I tried it – didn’t like it.)
Yesterday I left work an hour early to go pick up the girls from school. Leaving an hour early meant that I was able to treat myself to the gym for over an hour before I had to pick up Doodlebug. Okay? When I left the gym I was on a runner’s/cyclist high because my workout felt great! It felt wonderful to relax and take my time and really focus on myself for a change without the “mommy guilt” creeping in. I was in a calm state of “this is how life should feel!”
So, until I find the balance of working, working out, living, and reducing my “mommy guilt” and well? feeling alive – I shall continue to be busy with the hopes that I get to sneak in an extra hour here and there for me.
If that doesn’t work, then I will rely on my accrued vacation time to help me get caught up!
(You know? If I could just hurry up and win the lottery then all of my “working-mommy guilt” would go away…just saying! I think I would like being a stay-at-home mom then, because I wouldn’t be staying home!)
On another note:
I have selected the line of bath and body products that I will be retailing in my studio. (You know, to offset revenue…) I thought I would share a sneak peak with you. Can I just say that this line of natural handmade soaps that are animal friendly, eco-friendly, vegan, synthetic free and petroleum free are 100% FABULOUS! So you can only imagine just how wonderful their other natural/organic products are! I don't want to reveal the name just yet, as I will be the first business in Texas to retail them! Yay!
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE THEM!
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