Dy 241 R-O-B-O-T M-O-D-E

It is official. I am shutting down. I am trying to find my positive perspective, but it is playing hide and seek with my mind and winning! I knew this day wasn't going to be much different from yesterday when I went to put on my Jeggings this morning and while I was tugging at them to go over my ass the faux zipper area busted! Jeggings are almost 100% stretch people! So, so sad! Do you feel my pain?!

See! Now I have an open zipper area with NO zipper. I'm going to have to sew it back together...ugh.

I am on robot mode today. I don't care, I have no feelings and I am just doing what I am told or what needs to be done.

(And NO that doesn't give Mr. Strong permission to test my "I am just doing what I am told" robot mode.) 

I wanna cry.

I wanna scream ("why the hell haven't you learned this yet!!!!!!)

I wanna go on a long all inclusive vacation to the St. Regis Resort, Bora, Bora in the French Polynesia.

I can no longer compete.

I have no control.

I have everything in this world to be grateful for - I am truly the luckiest woman in the world - yet I can't hold that perspective long enough to change my thought waves. It's going to be a short weekend...

So, until Monday, I will be hibernating in my closet drinking wine - or maybe I won't  - I'm in R-O-B-O-T M-O-D-E.