Days 274-293 - Lost in Hell!

Okay, a few weeks ago I let the world know that I was on a detour.

Well? you know how you are driving and see a detour sign and it points you in the direction to go, but then there are no more signs and you end up taking a 20 minute route because - well? you don't know where the hell you are supposed to turn!!!!

That's me! Grrrrr!

Objective 1: Get the house ready to sell.

Status: The whole back of the house has been renovated and redecorated to about 93%. The front of the house is about 80% complete, while the backyard is only about 40% complete. (I have a ton of before and after pictures to post!) I'm working my butt off - literally - trying to get my house the way it should have been already!  Mr. Strong works long hours, Doodlebug hurts more than he helps and the girls are lazy busy with extracurricular interest or watching Doodlebug, so the manual labor is moi, je, yo solo, me! I did hire a contractor to help me paint and install new crown moulding and baseboards, but I still feel like I am in this alone. (I went and spent years getting my MBA in Finance, so I wouldn't have to do manual labor...I'm sure Mr. Strong would prefer I didn't do any, since he had to fix a few of my mistakes. Maybe I will do more things wrong, so he will come in and actually do the work - right.)

WARNING: getting your house ready to sell creates an everlasting domino effect - DON'T DO IT!


Objective 2: Find a new house.

Status: Incomplete to the 100%! Okay people! this is ridonculous! Mr. Strong and I haven't been able to agree on anything and those houses that we do agree on are sold the day we view it... Finally, we decided to build and are currently awaiting those figures, but now? that is still being negotiated! WTH? I find a house I like and it is way too expensive - I find a house in my price range and it is not any better (updated) than my current house - it's not in the right school district - it's too far for the girls to walk home - we have to update and remodel before we can move in - blah - blah - freaking blah! I'm sitting on my 40+ house! What sucks worse...is that my budget is NOT low! You would think I wouldn't have a problem finding anything! House hunting sucks big green donkey dingalings and I feel completely alone - again!

Objective 3: Prioritize and manage my Fiscal Year End work.

Status: Complete to 95%. I am totally badass at what I do, so my work is almost complete, but I have to leave the remaining 5% because I don't know how much more of someone else's work I will have to complete. Oh yeah, I wrote that! I love my job and this is no secret to my readers, but I am stressed beyond what my endorphins can handle.

Manual labor = exercise = endorphins.
Manual labor = I don't know what the hell I'm doing! = stress.

(Right now the stress hormones are winning, because I just want to run away and hide and forget that I even started on this journey! )

Along with all of my prior objectives, Kitty is still hardcore tennis right now, so that means practices, games, tournaments and of course my awesome chauffeuring abilities. I started training both girls again, so I take advantage of Kitty's practices and utilize that time toward Kiki's workouts.

So? I am lost in detour hell and every turn leads to another effing turn and I feel like I keep going in circles. If I could clone myself, I would need 3 more of me to get everything done.

I am the demon robotic mom, wife and friend from hell right now (a.k.a. Mrs. BIATCH), because I don't want to take care of your problems, listen to your BS or simply care - until...

Until... I turn a corner and recognize that I have made stupendous strides towards reaching 100% of my objectives.  

I WILL get there - and hopefully for the sake of my marriage to Mr. Strong and my children - I will get there very soon!