In a strange place...

Have you ever woke up and just found yourself wondering - where am I in my life? Am I doing all that I can to ensure my own happiness?

I feel like I have been in this strange place since school started for the girls. Work is busy, the family is busy and I am just watching myself act and react like a robot.

Could it be depression? Maybe, but to tell you the truth, I am happy, but I am also unhappy.

I haven't been able to write as much as I would have liked to over the past 6 months and now I am coming up on my two year anniversary. It's crazy - two years - and I am disappointed at how this past year has turned out. Almost everything I had set out to do....bombed.

This past 6 months waved a big good fucking bye in my rear view mirror with a smirk the size of Texas. A smirk that said, I knew you would SUCK at meeting your goals!

If I am being honest, I guess I could write that my life has gone in another direction. A direction of commitment to work and to my family and "who the hell has time to workout!"

Sorry, my attitude is shitty and my lack of care is apparent.

At times I want to get on here and just write...just blog without a care...but I am not anonymous and that could cause problems with individuals that read my work.

It's just crazy right now - or maybe it's me that is crazy -  I don't know...

But I do know that I am in a strange place, and somethings gotta change.