For right now, I still do not like Jillian Michaels. I can’t believe that we (the girls and I) suck that bad on level 1 of her workout DVD. It is completely pitiful! I put my whole heart into that workout and still could barely push myself to finish the whole whopping 20 minutes! I knew weigh-in was going to be this morning, so I would have ran another 3 miles last night instead of eating too much dinner if I would have been able to move my legs. (I think I have pretty strong legs – but lunges, in any form, just kill me!!!!) Where are the episodes on the Biggest Loser where the 300-400-500lb people can’t move the next day! I know if I’m sore, they have to be paralyzed! Where are those episodes? Where are the episodes where the people are STARVING! They don’t show those either!
The girls helped me cook dinner last night – we had sandwiches. (Yes, I know my cooking skills astound everyone – I should be on Master Chefs!) The problem was that we didn’t eat until after 8. I hate to eat late, but when you have to work late, go buy groceries and completely question your (once unquestionable) athletic ability to the Jillian Michaels DVD, it happens. I think that is why I ate more than I needed too – she made me mad. Then I felt guilty – not because I ate too much, but because I wanted to go throw it all up after I remembered that weigh-in is tomorrow. I got over the guilt pretty quickly when logic told me I was acting like an idiot!
Fast forward to this morning - when the alarm went off at 5am this morning, I just laid in bed listening for rain. I didn’t hear any. Darn! I was scared to move for fear of the pain I knew I was going to feel in my legs, but I finally got up and looked at the window like I could actually see without my contacts or glasses…crap. I grabbed my glasses and headed to the kitchen to look out into the backyard and there it was, RAIN, yeah!!!! I went back to bed.
Four and five days this week without working out or not watching what we ate really showed on the scale this morning! I really wanted to write that my scale broke in some freak accident, but that isn’t really the point I want to present to anyone reading this blog. The point I want to make is that you start with small changes and make more good choices than bad ones, because every choice/everyday is directing the path toward our success or failure. It is completely and totally up to us!
Kiki’s morning weight = 132.6lbs a GAIN of 3.3lbs from last week!
Kitty’s morning weight = 173.2lbs a GAIN of 2.2lbs from last week!
My morning weight = 172.8lbs a GAIN of 1.8lbs from last week!
The girls were very sad about their gains this morning. I went to their room and just plainly asked, “Why are you still getting up with me every morning and working out?” (Not counting this past week, of course.) And Kitty’s answer was pretty quick – “I want to wear a bikini at the end of summer.” Kiki responded with a “I just want to lose weight.” When I asked her why, she said “so kids don’t make fun of me next year” - pause for a mommy’s tear :’( Okay, then quit sulking and regain control of your goals! Keep reminding yourself why you are working out and eating better (again, not counting this past week…) It is going to be these why’s and any other why’s you can think of later that is going to push you through to the next workout and meal. Ask yourself every time you workout or eat “are the choices I am making to push harder or slack or eat right or eat wrong – are these choices leading me in the direction of my why? “
It’s been 3 weeks. Three weeks and we have not given up yet! There is no way in hell that I am or letting the girls turn back now! Tonight, we run!
I am going to have some shirts printed with our why’s on them, so we don’t forget! Brilliant idea!
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