After the funeral last week and the traveling back and forth and well – everything else in between – I became overwhelmed and acted like a real witch with a capital B! Mr. Strong finally broke down and told me that I needed to go workout (to relieve stress and create my “happy” endorphins) or I needed to go away for the weekend. ***sigh*** that’s how bad “I” was…
Whatever - I went and worked out and it really did make me feel better. But, the whole time I was peddling away on that bike my mind was trying to figure out WHAT it was that was really bothering me. WHAT? What is it that ALWAYS seems to instantly put me in a bad mood – what is the negativity that is surrounding me and smothering me into a GIANT BIATCH!? I kept coming back to the same answer – my house. The once happy and carefree atmospheric energy is now dead and buried under a pile of laundry, chores, and “stuff.” I’m not a hoarder or anything that BAD, but I know for the kind of energy that I need to find and dig up again, I need to get rid of a lot of unwanted – outdated – broken – new – what-the-hell-was-I-thinking-when-I-bought-that “stuff.” I am overcome with staleness when I walk into my house. A staleness that creates NO energy AT ALL and that in turn creates unorganized rooms, closets and indifferent persons living in there – somewhere.
Most people that have been in my house would think that I am crazy for writing this – they can’t see what I’m talking about. Yes, everything on the surface is put away (or the door is shut) and straightened up, but it is the closed cabinets, drawers, closets (under the kids’ beds) that are full and bursting at the seams - ready to rip open and explode! I know the good (like a cool fall breeze on a sunny day) energy is buried somewhere deep down in the depths of closet hell! I NEED to find it again. SOON! I see (a lot of) little signs of house neglect here and there and I want to fix it – I don’t know how, but I am an expert “google-er” I can figure it out – right?
Saturday, the girls and I spent 4 hours – FOUR HOURS – cleaning two rooms. That is CLEANING two rooms – NOT organizing or de-cluttering! I guess I felt that if the beds and linens were washed and made and the floors were HAND-SCRUBBED then it would be easier to de-clutter and organize – after the fact.
Well, “after the fact” came and went and here I am back to a straightened house with an energy that is paranoid to resurface because it has been gone so long. And yes, I will be getting a private maid, but she won’t be paid to de-clutter my house! This is something that “I” have to do ***sigh***
The LOA tells us that simple visualization has been shown to increase strength, speed up healing, and increase attitude and comfort levels. I desperately need some mental healing right now, so I am going to visualize my clean, organized, clutter-free and simplistic house. I am going to feel the welcoming happy energy that I used to feel when we first bought the house many years ago and all the small neglecting has been taken care of.
I have learned that we’re likely to create our own limits within our minds and will need support from “wherever and whomever” until we learn how to have no limits to what we believe we can do within our own minds. I still have some set limits, but I have conquered through quite a few of others and have PROVED that the LOA works! I KNOW that I will get my house back to the simple and organized state that it has been and I know that I will once again feel the butterflies of excitement that I felt when we first signed the papers and the keys were handed over. And if I am brave enough - I will take before and after photos!
I MUST.
Tic-Toc
The countdown has started.
Clean house or mental breakdown?
Tic-Toc
Hmmm - mental breakdown might be easier…
Tic-Toc
Fine - Clean house it is then…
Tic-Toc
(Like the sunrise? I just had to change the background - now I can remember to be a Sunrise person everyday, even when I sleep in! Have you decided what kind of "person" you are yet?)
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