Today I am writing...
It’s been a very stressful week and a half. The girls are back and my schedule has gone to shit again. I’m trying to get through work and juggle the many tennis lessons, practices, tournaments and challenge matches – and it’s only been 10 days!
I feel like I have been picked up in a 500MPH tornado with no control. I am working on patience and trying to live in the moment, but it turns out that when I try – I realize I am extremely unhappy.
The only thing we are guaranteed is change and change is constant. I want to be that mom that pushes her children to excel beyond their capabilities, so that one day they can experience triumphant victory.
On the other hand – I can’t do it for them. I can’t make them want something more because I want it for them and I can’t make them fully appreciate their talents or make them use good sportsmanship. I CAN preach the Law of Attraction all day – but I CAN’T make them believe.
I am struggling with this. Something that is so simple to practice (LOA) and that can turn their tennis goals around exponentially is exactly what their problem is!
I’m tired of saying “change your attitude, change your game!” But the mom that I am won’t allow me to shut up.
So I keep yelling and pushing and I’m learning to accept that I CAN’T do it for them…well…I’m slowly learning…
I realized something else over the weekend too.
Going back to the whole change is constant sentence above. In reality, I can’t expect everyone to change in the direction that I want them to change - I can’t expect everyone to believe what I believe. But it brings attention to the fact that after all that time – knowing someone – if beliefs change – can you withstand it? Can you smile politely and nod your head? Can you stand by and let someone else try to impress their beliefs?
I. Can’t.
Or, can you unconditionally support someone’s happiness in the adversity of your beliefs? Can you?
Why yes,
I. Can.
Because when someone is happy – who the hell am I to ruin it? A happy person contributes positivity to this world and we all know we could use a shitload more happiness!
Sorry for the melancholy post, but I needed to vent.
Until next time…
