Days 333-336 Stop Playing Games

Yesterday I had a wonderful Mother’s Day! So, to all you mother’s out there – I hope you had one too!


You all know that I am working on my New Year’s Resolution to have 6-pack abs by the end of this year. For about 2 months, I was gung-ho and completely dedicated to fulfilling this goal as soon as possible.

Workouts – check

Eating RIGHT – check

6-pack abs – Oh yeah! On the way baby!

(doing the cabbage patch – running man – running man – burning those calories…oh yeah)

Then….

Yesterday ended a culmination of 2-1/2 weeks of “slacking”. Yes, I will be the first to admit this…

I can give you every excuse in the world: stress, hormones, work, family, house hunting, house renovating, depression and what seems like never ending house chores. Dare I go on?

Anyway, I have gained back 6lbs! That might not be much to any of you out there, but it has taken me 2 months to lower my body fat percentage and lose the healthy weight that it is going to take me to accomplish my goal and VOILA! 2-1/2 weeks of slacking and I feel miserable.

I feel like I have let myself down again – now looking for quick fixes and an easy one week unhealthy 6lb weight loss just so that I can write that I have maintained my weight throughout my binge! Ugh!

But, who am I kidding?

Did I have fun and eat mounds of great fattening food and plenty of cocktails? Hell yes! BUT, the enjoyment was short lived by a protruding stomach and constant worry over what the food and drinks are doing to my scale weight. The fun and enjoyment was accompanied with doubt, guilt and self-acknowledgment that I was eating wayyyyy toooooo much! So even though the food tasted really, really, really good – it made me miserable!

Apparently I haven’t learned about/exercised enough my self-control. Food and drink should be celebratory every now and again while you maintain a healthy lifestyle. Food and drink should not be celebratory every day and then diet every now and again to counter act the bad choices.

Right? Hello? Anyone?

I will be the first to admit truth to Kate Moss’s statement and probably get hate mail for writing this, but “nothing taste as good as thin feels!”

NOTHING

NADA

ZILCH

Nothing tastes as good as putting on your pants and not worrying about sucking in or having a muffin top.

Nothing tastes as good as feeling sexy and comfortable about the few belly rolls you have because they are not filled or bloated with unhealthy gassy food choices.

Nothing tastes as good as lounging in your comfortable clothes and having your husband put his arms around you and you don’t worry about sucking in or telling him to stop because you don’t want him grabbing onto any fat.

“THIN” is a state of mind, in my opinion. My body is NOT perfect and I still have about 30 more pounds to lose, but when I was eating healthier I noticed I didn’t worry about my gut, my belly rolls, or ANY of my imperfections because they were not bloated and overstuffed with the delicious, yummy, greasy bad food choices! There was no guilt, no worry or no doubt accompanying my breakfast, lunch or dinner. Again, I am not perfect, but I felt sexier and more confident than I do today after my 2-1/2 weeks binge!

It’s very sad to write that I have passed on my eating habits to my girls. Because I was letting myself slack over the last 2-1/2 weeks, I let them slack too. This weekend after another gas bloating, over-eaten meal, the girls tried on tennis outfits for this summer’s tour. Although Kitty has been keeping up with 3-4 hours workouts 5 days a week between the gym and school – Kiki is only getting 75 minutes in at the gym and 15 minutes at recess 5 days a week. (And the gym has only been recent!)

Kiki had some emotional moments while trying on clothes and it broke my heart! So as you all and the Universe is my witness, I swear that I will do everything within my power to help her lose her belly and raise her self-confidence beyond this galaxy!

She needs my help – period. The girls look to me for guidance and what they have been guided to has been a 2-1/2 weeks free-for-all food fest!

Shame on me! It’s my fault – it is always my fault – I am the leader…

I want to introduce Kiki to “nothing tastes as good as thin feels!”

Kitty has felt this feeling and learned from it – It’s time for me to quit playing games with my life and my goals – It’s time for me to teach Kiki – It’s time to find that road less traveled again!

I wish nothing but guilt free choices and a long and healthy life for you all!

Blessings!

1 comment:

  1. You are inspiration to me.
    It's not how many times you fall, but how you get up right?

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